In memoriam of the lost, the fallen, the Loved ones left behind.
I’m not entirely sure if it’s ’cause I’m getting older, or because of my views, or the death I’ve seen (not as much as some… many even, too many more…), or just an innate longing to see Life flourish, as opposed to seeing it squelched. Regardless of the reason, it effects me to see death! It rends my heart to see Life’s senseless destruction!
And such is what transpired on the night of 10JAN2019, here in Davis, CA. To be sure, in a societal, or even global context (most unfortunately), this is not an uncommon occurrence. But it happened here, in Davis, where it is uncommon, and where I was able to be present (geographically) as it transpired, aware of it, and, as noted, effected by it!
22 year old Davis Police Officer Natalie CORONA was shot and killed by a (reportedly) crazed gunman, who showed up on a bicycle where she was responding to an (unrelated to the shooter, as far as we know) accident involving 3 vehicles in downtown Davis.
I’m still soul searching to figure out why exactly this has had such an impact on me… I’ve come up with a few possibilities, but none of them -on their own anyway- seem to fit. Perhaps it is just a combination of factors in my Life… my sensitivity, my Love for Life, beauty, and all things natural… perhaps it’s my poetic nature, and a “Life interrupted” in such a cruel manor is anything but “natural”. Perhaps it’s because she was young enough to be my own daughter, and, not having any children of my own (though I dearly, painfully want them), I “adopted” her as a “soul daughter”, a surrogate, not so much unlike the premature death(s) of my own unborn children.
Whatever the reason, I’ve a strong emotional attachment to this young woman, as “crazy” as it may seem, and the deepest of sympathies for her parents, having -even if only fractionally- a small modicum of understanding the pain of losing a child, being a surviving parent of two separate miscarriages of 3 children… a pain I wish upon no parent. The world is worse off, with her absence. By all accounts given, she was a caring, giving, gentle, strong, passionate, determined, upright server and protector of the city! One who was destined for greatness in her chosen career, had she been allowed the opportunity to grow with it!
I know I’ve spoken before of Life, it’s importance and meaning to me (poetically, at the very least), what I believe it means to be a part of so wonderful a Creation as human beings are! The thing is, is that “my views” are not necessarily “your views”, and, quite obviously, there are those that have no regard for Life at all. And that in-and-of itself hurts me deeply.
My one time therapist told me I was a romantic. I nearly laughed, for I know no poet who is otherwise! But for me, this entails an optimism, an idealism, about what Life should/could be! And a desire to see a shift in/towards that direction in ALL of us! We are capable, as sentient human-beings, of growing, of becoming better than we are! We are able, to be the “best” “us” we can be, if we but choose to do so! And therein lies the crux of the matter. Choice. An indelible condition of our mortality! I would not have it any other way!! Yet there are so many of us, for some reason, who are choosing death over Life! I don’t understand this! There is not one out of 7 billion (plus) of us Human Beings, our brothers and sisters, that has any need that is different from our own! Love, Food, Shelter. That’s it! So why are we continuing to refuse/deny our brothers and sisters of the very things we ourselves want?
Are we not supposed to Love our neighbors as ourselves (EVERY major religion has a form of the Golden Rule, whether they follow it or not…)!?!? Therefore, if we want it, shouldn’t we help them to have it too? Who doesn’t want help obtaining a perfect “trifecta”, a balance of all that is necessary, with just a hint of what we want thrown in as the cherry on top, to keep us striving for better???
As this is a COMMON goal among us all, why are we getting in each others way, and our own, to prevent it? Ask anyone, and most people will tell you they’d rather live in Peace, than discord! They’d rather face Love, than apathy. They’d rather Live, than die. Why then, are we so stuck on destruction? Why do we continue to act not for the Greater Good (which, ironically, would indeed serve ourselves as well… especially if everybody was doing the same), but for the narrow, itty-bitty self-serving “now” and instant gratification we know cannot last, and will benefit not one of our progeny!?
No one with more than most others will seriously or honestly tell you there Lives are better, or simpler with the abundance they have! Easier, maybe, but their quality of Life is actually much lower than that of someone of the “blue collar” class, for, as “we” have less, we appreciate what we do have more!
It is a shame, then, that there are so many out there, so hurting, so lost, that they feel the only way they can improve their own lives is by taking an other’s. It’s false. It solves nothing, and only increases the hurt that is felt. And yet we allow it, by our own inaction. By our neglect of that which we know to be right, versus what we are willing to do that is right. Evil cannot win unless Good people do nothing.
This, therefore, is a call to action! To all those Good people out there, who have been convinced -falsely- that there’s “…nothing I can do”, STOP BELIEVING THIS LIE!! Great things are accomplished by small acts! You don’t have to move a mountain, just a pebble! So that someone else’s journey through this Life might be a little smoother! We all must climb that hill, that mountain, take those switchbacks, like it or not! But if we take the time, and make the effort to help out another, by so simple a means as moving a pebble out of the way to make the path a little more smooth, can you imagine how easy that climb would be, for ALL of us, if we ALL chipped in in like manner????
Who knows… by a simple random act of kindness, you might just be changing someones mood just enough, by putting a smile on their face, or in their heart, that they don’t feel that an other’s Life is worth being lost.