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Good Morning!!

Well, somebody had to say it!  LOL  You can’t see me, you’re reading this!  So it is important that I describe to you all that is going on around me, that you may understand.

Life.  Life is going on, all around me!  And I want so much to be a part of it!  But you won’t let me.  You keep the door(s) locked.  I can’t get in {“What if I’m (he’s) a “criminal”??}  Well, the cat’s out of the bag.  I am.

By “societies” standards, and definition.  In truth, I’m not.  I try, every day to be the Best me I can be, every day.

By “Best”, I mean, non-violent, Peace Loving, Love wanting, me that I can be.  I don’t condone violence, of ANY SORT, but I continue to be subjected to it, literally and figuratively.

My Name is Elron!  What’s your name?  How are you??  Simple greetings, to be shared or ignored as you please.  I have only my words, all else has left me.!

And so I return.  Again and again!  Gladly, for YOU!  Will you have me?

If so, I’ve made the means and the ways for you to contact me when you Wish, available on as many “sharing” “medias” as I’m willing to tolerate.  To be honest, I grow tired of all the technology, the data, it’s all so superfluous!  What MATTERS, IS LIFE!!!!  And the Living of it.

And the people you know, that you invite into your space, matters.  What you do with them, how you do it, Why you do it!

If I’ve confused you, please start from the top, and read it again.  Everything else, is so much fluff!!

I could sit here typing to/at/for you all about what I’ve gone through in this Life, or others, but I do not wish to spend every waking moment typing, or reading, though I enjoy both!  And yet, how else do we share?  I’d rather be Living, alive, feeling, experiencing, all that Life has to offer.  For it doesn’t matter WHAT you do, just so long as you are harming none in doing so.  That includes YOURSELF!

The TRUTH is out there, in every language.  And if that’s what you’re lookin’ for, you’ve found It!  If not, look else where.  I’ll tire eventually of repeating it, but I’ll say it again, perhaps with more words, so you can more easily Understand.

I Love you ALL, that I’ll NEVER tire of saying, to you as an individual, or as a Group.  For THAT is what matters, nothing more, nothing less.  If You’d like to Hear more, feel free to ask (in “person”, in RL preferably), but I’ll respond digitally if you want [you can’t like it or Love it, it’s not “alive”!]!

Aloha!  Namaste!  As-Alámu Álaykum!

~Me~  {~Elron~}

Posted in Life, Poetry

In Remembrance…

July 17, 2011, I lost a Housemate.  And a Friend.  A comrade-at-arms, a man I was looking to as a model of possible success.  We didn’t get a lot of time to spend getting to know one another, but the time spent was well, and I will carry his memory with me always.

Blessed be Charles A. Baird.

 

In Remembrance

 

Per a Friends interest

I write this rhyme

to mark the passage

of a Friend through time

 

For an artists Life

is feigning gay

we see Life’s beauty

in a vast array

 

Though time & space

we immortalize

the Good, the bad,

all that we idealize

 

A moment stolen

is all we have

to make Dreams real

to mark our paths

 

Life is short

and bitter sweet

where Love resides

lies no defeat!

 

Take your time

to remember the past

when memories Live on

their messages last.

 

©   28JUL2011                                                    James Elrond Mings

 

 

Posted in Deep(er) Thoughts, How I see the World..., Life

My Letter to An Angel & Phoenix!

The only way(s) one can speak with an Angel or Phoenix is through Belief, Prayer, Spell, and perhaps in -physically- written form, save for the obvious, and perhaps “less” likely, “in person”.  (Unless you know one!  😛 )  Now, thanks to the advent of technology, we can reach out to the Universe through cyber-space!  One day, perhaps we’ll share more through telepathy.

Nya melda mellon,

                If/when you ever read these passages, I hope there is no confusion as I skip back and forth from “letter” style to Journal entry.  LOL  I try to go with what feels right, and thus far, the only constant -and Positive- “feeling” I have/get is that I keep writing.  I Promised.

Though it becomes more daunting each time, as with the passage of time, the likelihood -from my “mortal” point of view- of you reading them/it seems to dwindle… but, what do I know?  I’m just a silly man, a little fish in a big pond, trying to make my Dreams come true.

                Case in point: I’ve tried by every means I am capable of and know about to reach out to you, without violating your request/demand for space, and for me to “stay away”.

The cruel silence sworn never again to be, haunts me still, and I know not if/when it will end.

                And yet, still I reach!  Still, I continue to write, still I continue to Dream!  Still, though you deserve -at least the chance- to share in the Glory of all my successes, as none would’ve been possible without you, I celebrate them alone.

                There is so, SOOO much, I want and wish I could share with you!  Things I can only share with you!  The Things I’ve been Shown, Memories recalled, Images, so Real of our past Lives together!  Every sense is filled with them!  {All 9 or more of them!! 🙂 }  Remembrance of our time spent Together before you left for boot camp & then before “A” School!  Remembrance sharing the knowledge of these Lives with you as we lay together in Love, entwined in each others Souls, words connecting Past, Present, and Future as One!  So much, so fast, yet bound by time in each Precious Moment!  In each others eyes we saw beyond mortal flesh and through time into the Universe!  We touched in ways beyond the flesh, Souls uniting, Love binding, we became One!

                You’ve said it twice now, “It all happened so fast!!”  Yes!  It did!  Love is not bound by time, but  by memory.  By the way we remember/recall/felt things happen.

                Blessed in those moments, we shared Lives of Love, found the keys of time and unlocked our Spirits to the Reality of Forever!  “Always & Forever!” you said, then I “Forever and Anon!”

                Our Love is so Great we broke the rules of time!

                So we paid for it.  You’ve actually suffered physically for your memory loss, I’ve suffered… well, for lack of memory in general.  We’ve both suffered.  As long as we’re Together though, we may remember more!  When we’re apart, if we’re not careful, memories can fade.

                It’s taken me nearly 17 years to recall half the time we spent together!  Yet as each Blessed Memory returns, more of the “puzzle” makes sense!  Life, then, makes sense.  And it is when I’m thinking of you that the pieces come together!

                Sadly, I don’t know what, if any of this, you recall… we talked about your memory loss (of our first Union), but -you- said little of/about what you recalled.

Those memories locked away have started coming back to me, in this our most Blessed Magickal year so far this Lifetime, but not without a further cost.

                For I am alone.  The only One I could share this with, You, hasn’t spoken a “meaningful” word to me in nearly two years!

                I’ve tried every way I know how to, tried to at least have some dialogue between us, and you’ve shut me out of your Life completely, texting a demand I not come near you or your daughter on bane of a Restraining Order!  Have I really done something worthy of such a threat?  I don’t know, you’ve not told me anything, other than “It all happened too quickly”, and you “needed your space”, as you and y/”our” {I acknowledge I have no legal right or “claim” to call her “my own”, yet, for three of the most Glorious months of my Life, I was Blessed with the opportunity to share something so pure, so powerful, so un-jaded, unconditional, unyielding as a Child’s Love, and for but a moment, I felt as though the title “Daddy” fit…}Precious little Princess hadn’t yet had it -space- on your own before.  That’s it.

                And so I wait, and Pray.  I Pray that you follow the Path that will bring you the Greatest Love, the deepest Joy, the Truest Partners, Family, and Friends, the fullest and most fulfilled Moments possible! …Whether they include me or not…

                I fear the pain of the loss of our Children furthers your desire to forget what you may recall/remember… but we must strive to recall all we can of the past, and always remember, while we’re able, that we may quit repeating the mistakes therein!  Without knowledge of the Pain, we are unable to truly appreciate the Bliss that is its opposite!

                I’ve been SO BLESSED!!! to have these memories back!  Some of, no, many of them hurt, yet they are Beautiful, and Precious Moments, each and every one!  It hurts more that I’m unable to share them with you, as you’re the only one that might remember too…

                Words cannot express, the intricacy, the synchronicity, the intimacy, and Beauty of the Universe found in each and every one of these memories, and we SHARED them, in a time and place you’ve forgotten, and I’m struggling to remember!!

                Of course, I can’t say that for sure anymore.  I don’t know what you may or may not recall/remember, we “haven’t had the chance” to talk about that yet.  When last I tried to have the conversation with you, -before I left there for here the first time- you said little and changed the subject!

                Two more years have nearly gone by.  So many Precious Moments lost…

                Mother Earth has helped Heal me (we have to want it…), and Heavenly Father made it possible, that I recall yet more of the best days, the best Moments of my Life!  Life for me is finally back on track, I’ve been, and remain to be, so Blessed!  But so alone…

It has been said that to achieve/discover Ones Destiny, “One must remember it first!”

                It’s funny, and a little sad.  That we must lose something, before we can find it.

And I’ve found you, twice!!  And the Blessings I’ve received pursuing my Dreams are too many to be told!

                Though, if given the chance, nothing, for me, would bring me Greater Joy than trying to share them all with you!  And to share with you all the Glories of your Dreams coming true as you pursue them!  That -those- Blessing(s)… is/are out of my hands.  Just out of reach…  But I believe Dreams can come and do come true!!

                I found my Angelic Moon Goddess, my Queen, a Phoenix!!  Twice!  Now , if she wishes, it’s her turn, she must find me.  And should our Paths cross once more, it will be an honor, and the Greatest Blessing of Love I’ve ever known!  To share, if even only a few of those moments we’re given so few of!  If given the opportunity I would be her King to the Greatest of all my abilities!  I can, I SHOULD do no less!!  She’s the Woman of my Dreams!!  In truth, I would happily be her servant!  A part in her -your- Life, would far out way no part in it.  But  I’ve let her -you-, “my” Phoenix fly free, and/or she has chosen to fly away, that she may choose her own Path too!  Whether she remembers our pasts together -Physically and Spiritually- in this Life, or chooses to forget, is her choice.  Your choice.  If she -you- want to remember, I’ll do all I’m able to help you recover those memories, to help you recall the Beauty, the symmetry, the Poetry that has been our Lives, and the Love we shared!  Or we can start anew, and make it up as we go! LOL  But it is your choice where, and if you land, and whom you fly/roost with. It is, or would be, mine to help ensure our house is a Home, and to be a Gatherer!  No matter how we do it, no matter what we do, if we do it together, Nothing can stop the Flight of 2 Phoenix’ Love!  Together, Forever, we will fly!  “Third time’s the Charm!”  😛

                We each get to choose, that’s the Greatness & freedom of being Human!  I’ve chosen my Path, and the One I wish to, would like to, and have Dreamed of walking it with!!  I’ve seen it!  It’s Real!!  As Humans, we get to choose to make our Dreams a reality, or our nightmares.  Or some of them, or none.  I “want” all of my Dreams to come True.  But I can only control the outcome of those that are only about me.  To SHARE a Dream, both must want it.  And when 2 or more SHARE Dreams, that’s when the Magick happens!  That’s when our Dreams become Reality, when we become bigger than ourselves, and if we all dared so much, what a wonderful World it would be!

                I Pray thee well!!  And may all your Dreams come true!

Ine Mela lle yo ilya nya hon nya melda mellon!!

Aloha!  Namaste!  As-Alamu ‘Alaykum!

 Forever and Anon,

James Elrond Mings

Posted in Deep(er) Thoughts, How I see the World..., Life

How to Make Your Dreams Come True!

First and foremost, I asked you (or, I suppose, told you) to ”Stop!”.  Then, after describing briefly (hehe) what I thought it was we were doing “wrong” with our Relationships, I then -again, briefly (hehe)- explained “How?”  Well, here’s another approach.  Speaking personally, not just “theoretically”, I’m going to use my own Life as a basis for the premise.

It is actually quite simple to make your Dreams come True.  All you have to be willing/able to do, is to believe that they are possible.  The mind is a powerful thing!  It is the greatest muscle in the body.  It’s the “CPU” (Central Processing Unit) of our bodies.  It alone, is capable of interpreting for us the data of the World around us, and translating it in to recognizable patterns that make sense to us, thus allowing the ability to communicate.  To share.  To give to the energy of thought a power greater than 1.

Now that we believe they are possible to make real, all we have to do, is find someone else to believe in them too!  If we can do this, just these two things, we can accomplish anything, if we have just one other person believing our Dreams can come true!

If you manage to find someone who has the same Dream, you’ve found a Soulmate.  And if you both have had the same Dream, and both Believe it can come true, no human force or amount of difficulty can/could stop you!!  {For a recent and popular historical reference, see the “Wright Brothers”, and “Flying”.}

I’ve seen it personally, I’ve done it, I’ve shared it!  When Dreams come true, Magick happens!!  No one has the right to tell us our Dreams “can’t” come true, no one has the right to keep us from pursuing our Dreams!!  Besides, we are all more than capable of getting in our own way!   LOL  I’ve spent my whole Life chasing Dreams -well, okay, one specifically, but before the pieces started fitting together, they seemed to be more than one-, wondering what it was that caused and/or prevented them from happening.  That too, is a simple answer… Faith!

You see, nearly 1700 years ago (plus or minus, depending on which sources you believe make the most sense, and/or, how deep you get into the mystery of our “true” origins…), Humankinds Faith was turned upside down!  Men -in their “infinite Wisdom” ~insert implied sarcasm~- decided they alone should have power, and were tired and done with “sharing” it with the other half of Humanity (and, in my own personal Belief, the better half), Women.

This disrupted the balance of power, and, not surprisingly, has caused a ripple effect we are still feeling!  You see, here’s a secret…  {lean in close, don’t let it get out!}  IT TAKES TWO!!!  Life, in fact, cannot go on, without a pair.  You cannot have Life, or Love, without the other!!  Life (or Goddess, Mother Earth), and Love (or God, Heavenly Father) are Eternally connected!  Life (that Physical, discernible Substance) and Love (the Greatest Gift, indescribable, intangible Power) work in Harmony through ALL of Nature!  There is not one without the other!  When we (the Living) embrace Life, Love is found!  When we (the capable) share Love, Life is created!  When we divided Life/Love, Goddess/God, Positive/Negative, Earth/ Heaven, and said they “can’t exist together, it’s either, or!” we separated the Greatest Union in all of Creation!  For, as we ALL know, If there is a Mother, there must be a Father, and vice versa!  [Yes, there are always exceptions.  There are those among us who are not Living, and, sadly, those who are incapable of sharing Love.  There are such low Life forms that are capable of propagation asexually, but if we were created in “His” image, does that really apply to us???]  I digress.

When one seeks to dominate an other, nothing good comes of it!  We’ve been killing each other for millennia, and no one is any smarter for it!!!  Has either side in ANY  battle or War been proven Right, or wrong?  Or have we simply proven who was better at killing?  Lives taken in pursuit of unclaimed “X” (where X = whatever the excuse is, used to “better” ourselves, and gain some “Wisdom” not achieved/achievable while the other Lived), countless!  Actual “permanent” gain found, and brain cells multiplied (by even ONE), ZERO!!!  Game over.  Check the History books.  The result is the same, each, and every, time.

We cannot succeed on our own, a babe left alone in the woods has a slim chance.  We need each other.  We are not designed to survive alone, there is nothing Heaven or Earth alone can give us that will sustain us without help from the other.  So why do we continue to empower individual “Men” -or Women-, when we know, it takes Woman, & Man, working together, for Life to flourish?

We are all equal, we are all capable of success!  We are all at a time and moment in our Lives when our Dreams CAN come True!

But we must be willing to Believe!!!  We must accept NOT our limitations, but our LIMITLESS potential, and our ability to make our Dreams come true!!

I have dreamt of One Life, One Woman, One future, for as long as I can recall having dreamt at all!  And everything that has Inspired and shaped my Life, has led me to this point, this moment!  At the time in my Life that I was most miserable, is when I denied my Dreams most!  When I said “I can’t…” or “It can’t be true…” or “It can’t be that easy…” or “It/I can’t …” blah, blah, blah, yackity shmackity!

As soon as I accepted the simple possibility, that “It can…” or “I can…”, my Life began changing for the better!!  Once I realized that it was only me in my way of my Dreams coming True…  I’ve been on a Spiritual high ever since!  😀

Sadly, however, my Dreams have meshed with Visions.  Though this in and of itself is not a “sad” occurrence, it does bring in to play different variables.  Every one Dreams, of what they want to be, of who/what they like, what they “want” most…  Not everyone has/gets Visions, and/or recognizes them as such when they occur.  Dreams -in comparison- are easy to achieve, because they are your Dreams.  Rarely is the focus greater than you, in some context or another.  Visions, on the other hand, are not of the self, per se, they are of events Past/Present/Future, and though typically very precise, include more than One person.  Where you add other people, you add other wills!  Where you are following your Dreams, you follow a “single” path.  Where you are walking along the path of a Vision, others walk, and therefor they also have chosen (or choose) to walk the same path (usually as they have seen the Vision, or something like it), either in whole or in part.  Though everyone’s Dreams are different, so too are everyone’s Visions -basically- the same.  Dreams guide the one.  Visions guide the many, as individuals, and as a collective consciousness.

Thusly, when more than one “Will” is seen, both (or more) play a part in its actuation…  Not every Vision comes true, nor is every Seer 100% accurate, there’s just too many variables at play.  It’s not likely, we’re not perfect, and things/people can change!  Only the past is set in stone.  Some are, or can be, however, more accurate than others.

I’ve dreamt, all my Life, of One woman.  At first, and as a child, it was an unrefined Dream.  A few character features I couldn’t quite explain “why” I liked so much, I just did.  As I grew older, and discovered more of my “self”, and what I liked, I found more of what I wanted matching up with my “Dream(s)”.  One day, as I was -quite literally- placed in a certain place, at a certain time by the Powers that be, the Universe, Synchronicity, {pick one, choose your own, whatever, just so long as you find something to Believe in…} Father Sky and Mother Earth came together as one, and in a moment I’ll not soon forget (those same Powers that be so willing), the World, my Life, Past, Present, and Future, came together as one, and was seen in this Angelic Moon Goddess’ eyes, and it all made sense!  But only for a split second!!!  Thereafter, my immediate after thought became, as we Human beings are so notorious for doubt, “Are you nuts?  You literally just met this woman, and you’re thinking about the rest of your Life with her???”

It’s taken me the last 16, going on 17 years to have the Faith, the Belief, that Yes, Dreams can come True, if you let them, and if you’re willing to work for them, for the Vision to begin to form, and congeal, to become “real” enough for it to begin making sense!  Part of the problem, however, is if Dreams shared are only recalled by one part of a pair, the Dream itself changes.  I know she used to share/see the same Dreams, we’ve spent many days/nights talking about them… but of the Dream(s), or parts therein where our recollection(s) differ, without Divine intervention, and/or an attempt to help her recover those “lost parts” (should she even desire to remember/recall), are not easily reconciled.  I’m still recalling things I’d nearly forgotten of our past…

Things I’d seen and forgotten in that split second, began to make themselves known, as time moved on and certain events took place.  And this continues to happen.  But this hadn’t then occurred, and didn’t for several years!  At first, it was just a blur, a nagging thought, and when Life took us in separate directions, that’s all it remained to be.  A nagging thought, an inappropriate expectation forced upon (through my mind’s eye) the woman I married, who wasn’t this other woman, but a “quick” replacement, for I wanted the Dream to come true so much I forsook a few details, conveniently edited them for content so they looked the way “I” wanted them to, as the Vision took a back seat, and laughed at the folly of man, as he himself took a backseat and let someone else dictate what the “keys to success and happiness” were.  Not trusting what was already known/believed to be true.

Years later, when, once more, I was at the mercy of the Powers that be, and through the aftermath of the separation from my ex-wife, I finally accepted that I was not doing what I “wanted” to do.  I was not following my Dreams, nor making any effort to see them made real.  So, I began to do just that.  I began to do that which I’d always had a passion for, a talent that I could share with the world, one which I’d always Dreamt of doing, but didn’t ever believe could become real.

And within a year, I was working on getting a collection of my Poetry published, and looking to get/start my Life over, as I had always wanted, and Dreamed it may be.  Within that same year, the Woman of my Dreams re-entered my Life (ironically, once more, but through a series of “fluke” circumstances), and the Vision this time began solidifying for me through things that hadn’t been, couldn’t have been, real before!  Images started taking shape, the box of puzzle pieces dumped so “unceremoniously” in my lap before were now beginning to take form, filling in the “void(s)”!  I discovered that she was more of the woman I’d always wanted than I’d ever imagined she could be, she was, is, for me, Perfect!!  In every way, there is none better suited for me!  Everything important in a relationship, we have in common!  She is ahead of me in a few matters of “expertise”, she also had to fight a LOT harder to survive to get there!  Drastic events call for drastic change, or we are swallowed whole by the events found in Life!  Some rise above, and meet the challenge, others sink in to the depths and pits of sorrow and despair, and go back to believing “there’s nothing I can do…”

She has not!!!  She has risen above, to heights I can barely see!  She has been Blessed with (among other things) the Gift of Life, akin to and a part of the Greatest Gift, Love!  And she has done better and more alone, than many do with all the help they can muster!

At that time, I’d not yet learned for myself how easy it is to make your Dreams come True.  I was still waiting for someone/something else to show me how, or help me to figure it out, or allow me the time to figure it out on my own.

I had, nor was I given, any of it.  Once more, I had to lose.  This time, not only did it cost me the Lives of our unborn children again, but everything I most Truly and dearly wanted!  The Angelic Moon Goddess herself, turned her back on me for my folly.

I don’t blame her.  I couldn’t if I tried.  I wouldn’t dare.  She had given me all she could, and I, yet unsure of “how” to be me, fell in to old habits, not indicative of expressing Lovingkindness for another, and was not as responsible as I wanted to be, I still hadn’t overcome the shadow(s) of my past.  I forsook what was given/offered, because I still didn’t fully understand or appreciate what I had.  Finally, after losing our twins, and her a 2nd time, as well as the Love of a Precious Little Princess who called me the “bestest bestest Daddy”, I learned.

And now, nearly 2 years after the fact, as was meant to be (as I believe all things are), I’ve finally figured it out.  Or, at least enough for me to begin my path to being, doing, seeing feeling hearing tasting smelling and sensing in this World the Best that I can!  I’ve finally gotten out of my own way!  And since I began, doing the best I can, thinking the best I can, seeing feeling hearing tasting smelling and sensing the best I can, in “my world”, I’ve trouble asking for anything!!  Because I see how Blessed I am, I know how Blessed I am, I feel it, smell it, I can taste it, and sense it!  The Vision continues to unfold, two and soon three Epic Poems will have been written of it.  I’ve found Happiness as I never before imagined, Spiritually!  But Blessings unshared are only half as precious, half as enjoyed, half as healing as they can be.  ALL of Life is intended to be shared, most especially the Blessings.

Father Sky has so Blessed me with my mind and talents I would be a fool not to try to continue being better with both than I’ve ever been!  Mother Earth, is ever Forgiving, She is the Nurturer.  Father Sky the Provider, he’s forgiving too (But quicker to temper!  LOL).  I did not appreciate before, how Precious, rare, and Glorious Her Gift(s) were/are.

But again, I’ve learned.  I still breathe, there is yet Hope, I have Faith, and I am as Charitable as presently able, and will be more so as my means increase!  I’ll not again forget to give back, if even just a little.

She is still a part of my Dreams, this woman.  And a part of the Vision that is still unfolding for me.  The Vision now had so many years ago.  She dreamt it and saw it too!  But injuries have prevented her from recalling as much as I do of what we’ve shared {or so was the case when last we spoke… I truly don’t know what’s going on in her Life anymore}.  From the moment we met, we’ve shared a Vision!  In that Fateful instant, we had no choice, we looked into each others eyes, and there we saw Eternity!  Two hearts, intertwined and connected through Space and Time, found in an instant, between two young Lovers, not fighters, who wanted to see the world be a better place!  It was, at the very least, something we once “shared”.  At this point, however, it is no longer (as I’ve come to realize) just about me, what I saw.  It’s about what we saw!!  In that moment, and in the time we shared that followed, we awoke to one another!!  Our Dreams shared, as we spent each Blessed moment together unfolding the past, creating the future, we saw our Lives unfold before us, and we planned for ways to bring us back to each other, in the event we ever veered from our path!.  Like breadcrumbs, we began a trail that would always lead us back home… things to say, things to think about when we see certain things, smell certain things, memories placed in sync with things we do… gardening in the morning, riding our bikes, Lavender… different clues to spark and awaken recollection of moments, so precious, so rare, that we didn’t ever want to forget!  Songs we made “ours”, with hints in the lyrics for us to find, when we stopped and listened.  Things that would seep through our conscious, while we type, cook, clean, bathe.  Little triggers, like capitalizing the “O” in the word “One”, to remind us of what brought us together, what we feel when we touch, what we hear when we listen, see when we look, smell when we breathe, taste when we use our tongues, think when we’re alone.  An all sensory rapport!  However, time was not kind, and through varying events in our “separate” Lives, we forgot more than we recalled or remembered.  It’s taken me nearly 16 years to recall what I have,  and I’ve not yet recalled it all.  I can only imagine what she doesn’t now know and/or recall.  I can give her what knowledge I’ve gained, or try to help her recover what was lost, but now, at this stage of “the game” and our Lives, it must be her choice!  Though I still consider her “lost” to me in this present moment, we have been in each others presence within the last 9 months since I arrived  And nothing would have made me happier than to run up to her, hug and hold on to her, smell her hair, taste her lips, look again into the pools of her eyes, and see the Love we put there!  In each others eyes…  but, she asked/told me not to.  I don’t know why… at this point, I may not ever know.  But I have wanted it more dearly than anything else since I arrived.  To speak with her.  Once for the better part of 3 hours we sat not 50 feet from each other, and despite my intense desire to go to her, to plead with her, just to talk to her, I gave her her space.  She requested it.  When you let Love fly, you must let it do just thatIf we are so Blessed, when it is ready to land, it will return to us.  If not, we have done what was best for Love, and let it grow and fly elsewhere, letting them decide how they wished to Live, and decide what matters to them most, where they want to try and grow and flourish better than before, and hopefully, with those who wish/want the same.  And shown then TRULY, we do Love, for that is what Love is… caring more about that others well being and happiness more than your own!!  As I said, I discovered it was no longer about just me.  It never was.  And I hadn’t figured that out yet either.  It now doesn’t matter what I know, or remember.  What matters is whether or not she knows, or wants to remember!  Life to me now, is more Precious than ever before!  I am ready this time!  But now it’s not my choice, it is hers.  And I will honor her, with my Love, by showing her Love, by doing what she wanted more, giving her her space.  If she wants to let me back in, even the slightest, it will be her doing.  I’ve done all I can, and what I should have.  Now, I can but continue to be the best me I can, whether I’m able to share it with her, or anyone else, or not.  I’ve Lived my Life, no one else has… I must be responsible for those actions taken, and remember what I can of each moment shared, and Pray, that one day, there will be more sharing of moments together, and less wishing for them alone.

I can, and do, but Believe.  I can but -continue to- be the best me I can be, and remain grateful/thankful for all I have!  If she is to be a part of my Life, my Dream, the Vision I/we shared, then she must Believe in those same Dreams, the same Vision(s), and want to share her Life with me too!  And only she can determine that.

Because of her, all of the best things in my Life have happened!  I owe her more than I could ever give!  She doesn’t need me, and I don’t know what (if anything) she thinks of me any longer.  I can only now offer Love, as I’ve come to know it, and because of her, all the Happiness I’ve found being me!  These Gifts are but the least of what she deserves!  She is, after all, an Angelic Moon Goddess!  She is one in 7,000,000,000+.  She is all any wo/man could ever want as a partner!  She is a source of the Light in this world, and deserves no less than to have ALL HER Dreams come true!  Whether I am still a part of them or not.  As a Friend, a companion, a Teacher, a Lover, a Mother, NO ONE, compares.  And if she is half as aware of that fact as I am, it’ll be no easy task, nor free ride offered, to be so Blessed with the receipt of her Love, as a Friend or anything more!  But that’s okay… she’s worth it!  J

I’ve no need to keep looking, I found her.  I know who the Woman of my Dream(s) is, and I’ve met her twice.  She’s Living happily, I’ve heard.  I Pray it is so, few I think deserve it as much as she!  She deserves all the Happiness I’ve found being me, and more!  I Pray she is not Living as I, Half Loved, Half fulfilled, half complete.  The things I’ve seen, and accomplished because of her, because of the influence she had and has on my Life, is a treasure I will always hold most dear!  I’ve not ever before, nor since, and not again, been as Happy, as Complete, as I was/am or could be with her in my Life.  But that is her choice too.  I’ll not force or inflict my presence, my Dreams, upon her.  The Dreams/Vision(s) we share(d), must be claimed equally, or not at all.  Then or now.  If all I get is an occasional smile, it will suffice.  If I am actually so Blessed as to hear my name come from her lips, to read her word, perhaps then we can discuss once more the past, the present, and the future, and what they mean to us.  I’ll take whatever I am offered, and not ask for that which should be given.  Time waits for no one.  Life is precious, and ever fleeting, and when we are so Blessed, we get to share it with those we Love most.  If not, we either continue Living, or die.

I let her go.  If she comes back, I will be, once more, TRULY, one of the Happiest and most Blessed men alive!  Whether we Live on as Friends, or anything more.  If not, I’ll be one of the most Blessed, half-fulfilled, half-Loved, half-Lived people on the Planet.  I’ll still be writing, continuing to try and be better than before.  Even if I find “perfection” within myself, there will still be room for improvement, so long as I Live!

Who doesn’t want their Dreams to come true?  Who wouldn’t risk everything to see their Dreams come true?  Who doesn’t want the best of everything in/from Life?  Who doesn’t deserve the best this World has to offer, and the opportunity to pursue it?  The answer to these questions, is NOONE!!!

The best is soon to come!  We all have the opportunity to grow, learn from the past, and make a difference in the present, to benefit our future!  Or, there’s the obvious, and inevitable, truism, “If we don’t learn from the mistakes of the past, we are DOOMED to repeat them!”  I enjoy learning, how about you?

I believe, anything is possible!  I believe, we can accomplish anything, if we simply put our minds to it, and STOP allowing the word “can’t” to get in our way!  The only thing I know of, that we “cannot” do, is avoid death.  (Even so, anything being possible, even that, too, can be overcome.  But we’ll have to work more on helping each other, instead of hurting/killing each other, before that secret is discovered.)  Can you imagine, 7,000,000,000+ people, all doing their best, to better themselves, by being better, instead of trying to ”prove” it, or show it, just, doing it, being better, because they can, because they want to be!  It’s difficult… I’ve not seen or heard of so many working together for a common cause.  Or, better yet, for ALL common causes!  7,000,000,000+ people, choosing to Love one another, instead of choosing apathy, or entropy to be their Spiritual guides.  Wow.  The things we could do…

All we have to do, is care enough to listen, to discover what others want!  And once that is found out, and you find someone else who wants what you do, do ALL you can, to keep them in your Lives!  They are worth it!  You are worth it!  We deserve no less!  And -hopeful romantic that I am- I believe we can!!!

Blessed be!  Aloha!  Namastè!  As-Alàmu `Alaykum!

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Love IS the Answer!!!

As a follow-up for “Stopping the Madness”, I am so Inspired to provide the answer to “How???”!!!  And the answer is simple!  Love.

It is the “dirty secret” those who are in power and think they are in control would have you believe It is a “dirty” thing, a complicated thing, a convoluted thing, a “thing” in general, so bizarrely misunderstood, and all the more confusing, who has time for it anyway???

Who doesn’t want Love???  Who among us, is so brave -or foolhearty- to say, that they, can Live without Love?  Not I.

Love. It’s plain, it’s simple, It is easier to give, than to receive! 

Love takes work!  It isn’t disposable, or interchangeable, or something we can do without!  And it is so, very, SIMPLE!!!  All we have to do, is DO IT!!

We have allowed others to tell us differently for far too long now!  It all began, when someone was convinced, that the word “Love” would be an easier concept to teach, than “Charity”!  And thus it was changed, over 2000 times in the Bible!!!

And if those in power then, were willing to deface doctrine, Holy Scripture, in this manner for their own benefit then, what deceptions do you think they are willing to propagate now?  Better yet, what else did they change, to ensure their power structure remained in place, and the masses easy to control?

That’s the problem with power, it corrupts.  And this time, the lie is so deep, so close to the bone of humanity, that removing the dagger with which the deceit began may be too much to survive in its removal.  But we MUST try!!!  Religion is about the Faith, not the walls or title!  And the truest message taught by EVERY major (and most minor) religions, is Love!!  Love one another, Love yourself enough to want to do better, and in so doing, doing better by others!

Love is the answer!  Love is the reason we are here, it is the Greatest Gift, it is why we do the thing(s) we do.  But Love as it was meant to be, certainly not what it has become!!  How do we not get this?  How have we come to fail to understand, the simplest message on Earth, “Love one another!”, as to mean anything else, than to put their needs before our own?  Is this really so hard to understand?

We’ve proven time and again, we can kill each other.  Throughout millennium, we have shown that not only can we do it better, but that we can do it en mass, to greater numbers than ever before!!!

STOP!!!  What are we doing?  The only way we will ever survive, is if we work at doing it together!!!  Can you imagine, the Greatness that can be achieved, when 7,000,000,000 + people begin working together, to solve the worlds problems, instead of small pockets of un-empowered, well intended, overwhelmed individuals, unable to change enough, for there simply aren’t enough people CARING!!  What’s wrong with this picture?  Why are so few, doing so much, and so many more of us saying, “Meh, not my problem…”  YES IT IS!!!  It’s yours, mine, and every Living, intelligent beings problem, and we make the choice!!!  We can either strive to be better, and Live, not beyond our means, but within them, and give what we don’t need to someone who does!!!

Really, TRULY, it is that simple.  We need to bring back the Family perspective, make Love matter again, and do the best we can to understand that out of 7,000,000,000+ of us, not one, deserves any less than the rest of us!  We are all Family, we are all related, by the simple fact that we are ALL Human!!!  All Living things require Love -Charity-, Food, and Shelter in order to survive!  When did the “bare minimum” become the standard, and when did we accept it as being okay compared to having our Dreams fulfilled???  The bare minimum IS NOT OKAY, we can and should be doing better, for ourselves, and most especially for others!  Because when we do, we ALL benefit!!!

Want an end to world hunger?  Love more.  Want an end to poverty?  Love more.  Want an end to suffering?  Love more!  Want an end to petty bickering and strife?  LOVE MORE!!  It’s the one “thing” we all want, we all have to give, and can’t seem to get enough of!  Why? “Because we ‘can’t’!”  Yes we can!!!  I’m not speaking in tongues, this is no parable, just plain old, little old me, saying and putting to words, the TRUTH as we ALL know it to be so, and accepting the responsibility for having done so!  There is no reason for me to lie, and no way for me to get away with it if I were doing so!

We, as thinking, “intelligent” Human beings, choose, every day, to acknowledge the Light in our Life, or to accept the darkness.  Good, evil.  Right, wrong.  Again, it really is, that simple.  Any corporation, any religion, that tries to tell you differently, is LYING TO YOU!!!  Because they want their piece of the pie first!  “Before you go off, trying to save the world, give a little to me first.  I know it will be rough, but after my coffers are full, I’ll look out for you, I’ll just pad my pockets a little bit more, then we’ll get started on that whole, “lovey dovey” helping each other crap you’ve been talking about in your off time.  Hey, by the way, shouldn’t you be getting back to work soon?”  COME ON, PEOPLE, WE’RE BETTER THAN THIS!!!

At least, we could be.  If we’d stop paying attention to the supposed “leaders” who are “supposedly” looking out for our best interests…  I don’t know of one person today, in a seat of power, who is looking out for “my” best interests.  Were that so, I’d have a place of my own, my books would be published, I’d have a wife and kids… but I don’t.  Because the only one who wants these things for me, is me.  That does not excuse me from trying to be the best I can be at whatever it is I wish to do, in fact, it is motivation for me to do better, to be better, so that I can have those things!  Why would any one do any less?

Be the change you wish to see in the world!”  A great quote, by a great man.  But you know what?  He stole it.  As did I.  Because as simple as it seems, we haven’t gotten yet, how very easy it is.  How very easy it should be.  Love.  Charity.  Call it what you will, just, do it.  And the world will change before your very eyes!  I Promise!  Blessed be!

Aloha!  Namaste!  As-Alamu ‘Alaykum!

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Stopping the madness: No holds bard edition

A topic I’ve wanted to write about for a long time, but had not found a forum for, has become a four part article on examiner.com.  Here is what it may have looked like, had I not been limited to 300-500 words per article (as it is/was, that’s why it became a “four-part” article…  LOL)  😛

Take a look at the world around you!  We all have a part in it, we all have accepted an ever increasing decline in our expectations, we all have the opportunity to change, and stop accepting the “bare minimum”, from each other, and more importantly, from ourselves!

In order to successfully live our lives, we (all 7,000,000,000 + of us) need 3 things:  Love, food, and shelter.  And in that order.  We ALL have this in common.  So what makes any one of us different from the rest of us?  That too, is simple.  The choices we make.

There is no catch, there’s no trick answer, no hidden agenda, we ALL need these things.  We all want these things, more than anything else.  So why has starting, having, and sustaining our relationships become so… jaded?  Because, as we have so many times before, we began to expect less, not only from each other, but again, from ourselves!  And we have thus accepted less, of others, and of ourselves, in our attainment of “happiness”.

We only ever see ourselves through other people’s eyes.  That is what makes the relationships we maintain so critical!  The fact that we rely on others, to help us to define ourselves, means we all should be striving to better ourselves, by striving to better the quality of the relationships we have with others!  We should not be allowing a degradation of the collective consciousness, deprive us of being the best we can be, by surrounding ourselves with less than what we deserve!  And we all deserve the very best out of life, and from those we Love!

So how do we get it?  Love is a two way street, as is Karmic law.  We get back what we give, by some degree greater than it was in its “original” form.  By making an effort, greater than what the minimum “acceptable” limit is, we show we care!  We begin a relationship, by being interested, and staying interested, by giving what we can to make it work!

So why do relationships fail?  Because, we stop trying!  Because material possession means more than being happy with what we have, and as long as we can be “secure” in our stagnant ponds, we don’t have to worry about “the world outside”, so long as no waves disturb our peace.   Don’t bother watering the dying plant, just buy a new one!  We’ve become disposable.  We don’t want to improve any more than is required to “get by”, and why bother putting forth the effort for perfection when good enough is easy to find, and easy to replace?  Regardless of whether or not we’re actually HAPPY “getting by”.  Besides, the accumulation of wealth is much more attractive, and takes a lot less effort!  As long as we can “show” our value, why bother being of value?

Why aren’t we striving to do the most we can to see our dreams come true?  Why are we fighting each other?  Why are we doing the very thing(s) we know will hurt one another?  What sense does that make?  None of us want anything that everyone else doesn’t want too!  So why are we fighting over doing what we want, instead of just doing it???  Why are we still struggling so hard, to be ourselves, and do what makes us happy?  Why are we doing what other people tell us will make us happy, instead of deciding for ourselves what and how that is?  Life is so VERY short, NONE of us are Promised tomorrow, so why aren’t we trying harder to HELP one another, and do what we’ve always wanted to do, LIVE?? 

We, the “most intelligent” creatures on the planet, continue to struggle more than any other species to attain the 3 things we need most.  Why?  We are not stupid, slow, uncreative, unimaginative, or incapable of change!  We simply refuse to do so, because it might take a little more effort than settling for less than what we want, so long as it’s easier, doesn’t take as much time, and doesn’t involve the pain honesty might cause, when we admit we’re not doing all we can to better ourselves!  Instead of trying to share and enjoy the Life we interact with!  Instead we attempt to claim “bragging rights” for being better than everyone else, having more, instead of being more… and in this way we think we’ve “earned” more time to acquire that wealth that is so much more important than… what???  In who’s Life, is money more important than living???  Who among us wants anything more than being surrounded by those we Love, living as best as we’re able, sharing the joys and hardships, Living!  And if we are so fortunate (Blessed, for those with Faith), to rise the next day, among the same Loved ones, and do it all again?  We ALL want to Live, and to leave a chance for a better Life for our children (should we be so Blessed to have them in our lives), we all want the most out of and in Life.  We cannot have Life without Love, and vice versa.  They go hand-in-hand, we don’t get one without the other, so why have we endeavored for so long to remove Love -True Love, Charity- from what we consider “most” important while Living?

We should have in our lives, and/or be seeking to have in our lives, the lasting, fulfilling, life-long relationships that provide not only the foundation(s) of/for our social networks, but ground us to the “us” we want to become and/or remain to be!  If we are not now happy with ourselves, we cannot expect to be able to make another happy!  Or said in the more popular way, “We cannot love another if we do not love ourselves!” 

We are in the “prime” of our lives when we understand most what it means to “be alive”, and are more capable now than perhaps ever before, and mayhap ever be again, of achieving the “best years” of our lives, through our deeds!  We are at the top of the bell curve for “self” discovery, (I prefer to say “acknowledgement”, because, again, we’ve always been capable, we’ve simply cluttered our Lives with things we don’t truly need) as we should be transitioning from the “age of wonder” into the “age of accomplishment”.  In our thirties, we’re in the last decade or two of our lives before our bodies begin to drastically slow us down -by comparison-, preventing us from the level of activity we can now achieve/maintain.  But it’s never too late!  So long as we breathe, we are capable of choosing the right!!

Life is magick!!  All of it, every -otherwise seemingly- insignificant little bit, is magick!  The air we breathe, (breathing for that matter), the water we drink, the food we eat, the places we go, the things we do!  The words we use, the actions we take, and the ones we only think about taking!  The very thoughts we think, the sounds we hear and/or listen to, IT IS ALL A VIBRATIONAL energy we share, and it affects anything and everything and everyone around us!!!  We are capable of affecting our world(s), our environment(s), each other, simply by the way we interact with it/them!  Our beating hearts are a part of that rhythm too, as is/are the things we do to that heart, physically, and emotionally.

Yet we keep getting in our own way!  We accept 2nd best, because it’s easier, and we dare not expect too much, or we might get hurt!  If we don’t expect the best, we will rarely get it!  And I’m not talking about physical gain, I’m talking about Spiritual gain!  Everything physical passes!  It will not last.  At this point in our Lives, in our history, we should be making the changes in our “reality” that enable us to do the most, for the ones we care about the most!  We know Life is short, and can go at any time, so why are we still accepting the bare minimum?

We will not last long if we cease to believe that anything less than our dreams are possible!  If/When WE limit ourselves, we keep ourselves from the greatness we can achieve, by simply “accepting” things as they are, instead of continuing to strive for better!  And if we are continually striving to be better, how can we go wrong? 

It doesn’t always have to be “easy”.  Life’s not suppose to be easy, but it doesn’t have to be difficult either!  Just so long as it is what we want!  For if it makes us happy, the “toils” necessary to make it work, really don’t seem so bad.  It’s when we continue to struggle against ourselves, that we get caught up in making “things” more important than people, because they are “easier” to maintain.

There’s an old truism that goes:  “If we don’t learn from the past, we’re doomed to repeat it.”  As baffling as it may be… we still haven’t learned!

It’s time for that to stop!  We are (as we have always been) smarter than that!  And we have less of an excuse now than ever before, as we have “the digital age” to thank for streaming everything to race the information to us at near the speed of light!

We know better than to let greed corrupt our government, it’s what caused the Roman Empire to fall.  We know better than to let greed corrupt the market place, for it puts the middle class, the “Mom & Pop” stores, out of business.  We know better than to continue to pursue, and maintain relationships built on sand, instead of stone, for the foundation is what allows them to last!

Why are we so eager, to live hellishly, incapable of escaping the repetitive (cyclic) existence, repeating time and again, the very mistakes that made us unhappy to begin with?  Because we allowed someone else to convince us it is what we wanted!

It took me nearly losing my life for me to realize that my ex-wife cared more for the money I made than me, and before I would admit to myself that our relationship had “officially” ended.

But I still hadn’t learned.  For then I had to lose my unborn twins, before I began to truly appreciate how precious, and how delicate, how rare and beautiful life is!!  And how rare, the true bliss that is, or can be found, with the “person” of your dreams, who matches and compliments you completely!  And how quickly it all can be lost.

Only then, did it dawn on me, that EVERYTHING we do, matters!  The way we perceive things, the way we react, the words we use, the tones of our voices, our smiles -or lack thereof- affects reality as we know it!  Seeing the glass as half full, gives us hope, while seeing it half empty, fills us with the dread of what may yet be lost.  Only then, did being me become a priority, and the determination that every day, I would endeavor to be, and to become, the best me I could be, for we are NEVER promised tomorrow!  How much more must be lost, before we see that together we stand, divided, we fall?

We are capable of anything!  If we simply put our minds to it, we are capable of turning our wildest dreams, our craziest imaginings, into reality!  Just ask the Wright brothers, who were told time and again, “You’re crazy if you think you can fly!”  What happened to that unstoppable force of determination?  Of daring to be different, that set this great Nation on its course?  It got lost somewhere (I think) along the industrial age, as quality was replaced by quantity, and dreams were replaced with the “reality” that only the “rich” can afford to have fun… the rest of us have to work too hard for it, and by the time enough has been saved to retire, we’re not left with much to celebrate!

Why?

We are not bound to fail!  We are not expected (or shouldn’t be) to settle for things as they are!  We are capable of change!  We, ourselves, determine each and every day, whether we are going to accept things as they are given us, and remain stagnant, or take what we are given and make the most of it!

We have the choice, to learn from all that has befallen us, or to complain about it, and place the blame on someone else for the fact that we have not/did not put forth the effort to make a difference.  To be different.

Each new day, if we are so Blessed to rise, we choose, whether we shall rise to meet the challenges presented us that day, or take a back seat, and let someone else decide for us what they think we deserve.  We either succeed in bettering ourselves, and each other, or concede defeat in the face of opposition, and allow someone else to bear the burden.

Life need not be so complicated, nor our relationships.  When we meet someone for the first time, we can either do so with honesty, and the hope that one day something meaningful may come of it, or with dishonesty, knowing that at some point, the deception, once laid bare, will irreparably divide us, and cause yet more and pain and grief to be perpetuated.

We CAN do it!  We can make the difference!  We can shape our lives, as we see fit, by doing what makes us happiest, by seeking to obtain only that which we need, and giving back whenever so given the chance.  Or we can capitulate, treating each other no more honestly than we treat ourselves, trying to convince someone else that there is no escaping the pain we inflict.

We can change the world, we can make a difference.  We can reach for the stars, and touch them, hold and keep them.  Or we can believe what others say, that it can’t be done, that we can’t succeed, that we can’t change our world, merely accept it as it is, making no improvement “in the now”, or for future generations, leaving it to them to figure out, if they are even given the chance to do so.

All that’s stopping us, is us!  We limit ourselves, no one else.  No one is capable of keeping us from making our dreams come true.  Only we can decide if they are worth “fighting” for (metaphorically only, I am in no way condoning violence), or if we would rather lower our expectation(s) of what can be, and settle for 2nd best, as opposed to being the best we can be, in all aspects of our Life.  When we do our best, we find our best.  And ironically, in so doing, we also discover, we can do a lot more than we thought we could!

I wish, I dream, of nothing more, and nothing less, than one day being surrounded by my Family and Friends, and to share with them me, being me.  The best me I can be, and to share with them, they being the best they can be!  Or, the attempts we make therein.  Because that is what Life is about.  Not always being successful, or the best, but continuing to try!!  A great person once said, “It is when we fail that we learn to succeed!”  It really, truly, IS, that simple.

Our relationships are all we have, in the end.  They are all that make us “real”.  What will you see, when next you look to increase or strengthen a relationship?  Better yet, what will someone else see, when next they look to relate to you?

{To see the “original” article(s), click to this link for “Examiner.com” to see/read them as they are/were posted.}

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A Wordsmith’s Plight: What Dreams May Become

It is (or has been) said that a Writer’s Life is a lonely one.  On many accounts, perhaps this is true.  Even for those among us Writer’s who have successfully paired in one way or another, they (“our” mates not lost) are merely partners willing to share the moments we aren’t Writing, with us.  And provide the support and Muse-like qualities that the unsuccessfully paired try to find from “within”.  To all those who are and have been so willing to stick with us through the tumultuous cycles of productivity and lack thereof, for seeing us for who and what we are, and accepting it, for all of us -if I may be so bold-, I thank you!

As Writers, we are ALL Dreamers!  We seek to put in to “physical” form through words that which we dream, as we are -or feel as such- incapable of sharing “the view” as we perceive it any other way!  For our Dreams are all we have, and they define for us all that we seek to make real!  All Writer’s, whether of Fiction or Non, perceive the world in such a manner, that without the ability to express on “paper” (web-site, blog, through words spoken, whatever medium), that which makes “our” world “real”, we cannot share/relate adequately otherwise how we sense things to be.  We do not feel “normal” feelings, we feel intense passion(s) about all that surrounds us, and seek to communicate these perceptions in the only way we know how!  With words!  What matters to us, how it matters, who, and why!

We stumble between Dream and Reality, until somewhere along the way the blurred line takes form, and with ink/pencil/chalk/pick/keyboard/recorder in hand, what was merely a vision becomes tangible, something we can now see, feel, hear, and share with another!  Proving that it is more than grey matter between our ears, we thus “create” our reality(ies), making that which was before only or simply an imagining, something perceptibly different, whether as Fictional text or verifiable Documentation, our “Dreams” now have substance!  We are our own version of creators, and our Dreams are our own limits!  Finally, we don’t feel so alone!

And yet, in order to remain “understood”, we must then continue to write, to create, for once we are noticed for being Writers/Artists, it is no longer “ours alone”, but an ever growing animal that must be fed, and cared for in order to sustain the ever increasing hunger for more!

But, in a very real sense, we -the Human Race- are all such creators!  We are all such Artists!  We all, whether by Pen, Hammer, Camera, Mortar (or even Mortar & Pestle), Numbers, Letters, Musical Notes, Dollars & Cents, Cooking Ingredients, Shovels, Paint & Easel, Dance Step, Keyboard, Computer Code, Science, Symbols, et al. add infinitum, we shape and create the World as we perceive it, and wish it to be!  We determine at a very early age, what we think “our” world should be like.  What it should look like, how it should smell, taste, feel, sound!  And then spend the rest of our lives pursuing/creating those definitions!  Success or failure is determined solely by our strength of will, and whether or not we are able share it in a manner that is comprehensible to others!

To be sure, some are more successful than others, but the desire is the same!  The need to connect, no less compelling!  In whatever manner we try to express ourselves, we seek understanding from another, that we may launch forward with confidence and shared comprehension and vision, continuing upon the path we’ve decided makes our Dreams most clear, most real, most attainable in the World outside our heads!

But we can then/now say, “This is Life, this is what makes it all worthwhile!”  And the more we can successfully communicate this to, and find that understand and/or share our own understanding and beliefs, the more “successful” we call ourselves! We all have such potential for greatness! Our creativity is one of the most connecting aspects of our Humanity, and our individuality!  Sadly, though, it is also what keeps us most separate.

Too often expression is stifled, by those who don’t agree, or don’t understand, or don’t want to!  Sometimes it is thereafter more difficult to get back to the place where we were most understood, or we give up trying altogether for fear of further rejection and/or belittlement for our perceived uniqueness(es).  The irony is, we are all more similar than dissimilar.  It is only our lack of ability to adequately express ourselves, that allows for the confusion, the turmoil, the pain, to divide and conquer us.  Or we run away from those who see/understand us most clearly, for fear of association, for fear of closeness, for fear of a loss of self to the vision(s) shared.  It is also true that in some -if not many- cases, it is “safer” as well, for we/they are afraid of individuality, or change, or vulnerability.  Sometimes admitting that you are like another, or vice versa, is a case of “too close for comfort”.

And then there is also the possibility that we abandon our Dreams, shared or otherwise, out of laziness, a wanton desire to take the “easy way” out, instead of walking the walk as well as talking the talk.  Another problem, too many of us get lost along the way, or allow an other to dictate to us how they think it should be. We then forsake our own perceptions, our own Dreams, for theirs (assuming the Dreams aren’t, or weren’t, alike/shared.)

It is however most often the case that our passions bring us together!  And when we are creative, instead of destructive with those passions, we are capable of making real all that is/was believed to be impossible!  Our words and their vibrations then resonate through all that we define as being “real”, whether relayed literally or hypothetically!  It is in the very words we use that we find definition, acceptance, Oneness.  Or we find confusion, rejection, and separateness.  It is here where we Writer’s struggle most.  For the very words intended to unite and bind, can also tear asunder, when spoken/written in duress, or out of anger as opposed to compassion.  The Pen is mightier than the Sword, and we forget all too frequently -or ignore- the impact those words may have as they are passed on, translated, or communicated by someone/something apart from the source.

What a World (our physical World) could/would be, if we would just focus our energies on Creation, instead of domination and/or destruction!  What would/could be, if we all worked on sharing our Dreams, and helping each other to attain them, instead of undermining each other for the sake of greed, denying an other their right to Live their Dream, by claiming our own is more important?

Our struggle continues, yet still we Dream.  And as long as we Dream, there will always be Hope.  Hope for the chance that one day, through our words, we can bring into reality that which once did little more than blur the line(s) between our sleeping and waking worlds!

Posted in Deep(er) Thoughts, How I see the World..., Life

Inside My Head…

A Blessed day to thee all!

I’ve discovered, since creating this Blog, that you can’t get an update message sent out unless you “post” directly to the “Front end”, where this will appear.  So there is no other way for me to let you know that I updated my “About Elron”  Page, because, having done so, without doing what I am now, it would go largely unnoticed, unless you happened to Subscribe to that Page of my Blog… I think…  LOL

So, at any rate, I’m not going to Post a simple here it is… I actually intend on letting you in to a little piece of my mind…  If you don’t know me, brace yourself (if you do, you already know this to be a requirement LMAO), it can get bumpy in the recesses of my mind…

I am presently at an all time “high” in my Life, where all matters NOT including “Love” are concerned.  Where Love is concerned, I’m not doing so hot…

But, that is at the very least, in part, my own fault.  I have been so very Blessed in this Life, so much so, I couldn’t even begin to list them all here.  I would spend what’s left of my Life trying to list them, and wouldn’t be able to keep up, even if I could “catch up” to present day in the telling.  One of the biggest mistakes I’ve made, is not being as Grateful as I should have been of that which I had received.  And not realizing soon enough just how fragile, and precious Life is!  How rare those moments are, in which we recognize just how magickal it is, being alive!

Not the least of these Blessings, but certainly one of the greatest, has been the opportunity to meet my Soul-Mate, the woman of my Dreams, who I have literally dreamt of all of my Life!  She is an Angel among us, and all who know her, know her to be more than just one in a million, but one in 7,000,000,000+!  She stands out in a crowd, lights up any room she enters, and has survived adversity after adversity to become the Woman and Mother she is!  Successful, creative, innovative, gentle, Loving, determined, strong, independent, intelligent, beautiful, and all the while, delicate, even fragile.

Many women have aspired to do half of what she has accomplished, and have been unsuccessful.  And she has been twice in, and a part of my Life!  Twice now (the first time mind you, I had absolutely no say in the matter… not that I have any more say this time, but I could do more than I’ve done, but that is a gamble I’m not willing to take), I’ve given up my own “selfish” desires, and given her the freedom so deserved, to fly as she will, hoping for, but not expecting, a return.  Charity.  Putting an others Needs and wants before your own.  Love.

Some people think there is no such thing as a “Soul-Mate”, others believe in them, but don’t feel we are ever meant to be with them.  Some believe there is one “Right” person for each of us out there, others that any will do, it is simply a matter of what we are willing to do to “keep” in our Lives those we choose.

I am not saying any or all of these possibilities are Right, or Wrong.  I will say, that I Believe, that there is and has always been, for me, one Perfect match.  One person, one Woman, who is in every way, for me, the “most” perfect, the most ideal, the One!  I believe this because all of my Life, as I grew up, I had a building and growing set of ideas, of who it is, or would be, that embodied everything I wanted in a partner, a mate, a companion for Life, that I found to be the best traits of what I would come to define as being a “perfect” and “compatible” Friend to share the rest of my Life with, intimately.  And point for point, once I had met her, I knew!

Some may call me crazy, and indeed, they might be right.  But the moment I met her, and looked in her eyes, and touched her as we shook hands, I had a Vision!  One that I have yet to completely make sense of.  But it spanned a Lifetime, and happened in the blink of an eye!  In the moment I saw her, and stood to take her hand in greeting, in the instant in which we touched, my Life changed, and has not been the same since!  And it has taken all that has transpired for me to make as much sense as I have of that Vision, and to write those Poems of what I now recall having seen…

I believe that we do all have Soul-Mates, that one perfect match, that one above all others whom we find in our Lives that can make “Happily Ever After” a reality!  That one person who so Inspires us, that not only would we do anything for them, but strive in all ways, and in all things, to be better because they have so touched our Lives!  Do we always find them?  Does it always “work out”?  It would be nice if we did, and it did.  I believe it’s possible, and that there are always exceptions, and exceptional people.  I Believe they are always near.  I believe, that if reincarnation is more than fantasy, (I’m not implying that it is fantasy) that there are many people we stay “close” to in each Lifetime.  And of course it doesn’t always work out.  Some times because of our own actions, some times because of theirs, others both.  It’s true, all too often, that we don’t know what we have until it’s gone.  The sad part is, that both times I had her present in this Life, I knew what I had!

The first time, I hadn’t yet figured out enough of (indeed, at that time, any) that Vision to understand what I’d lost, but I knew, nonetheless.  The second time…  the second time, I knew, but I’d forgotten too much of who I was to be worthy of what was being offered.  I had just come out (within a years time mind you, but I was not yet fully healed/recovered from the effects) of my failed marriage, and though I was well on my way to getting back to “being me”, I wasn’t.  I was still too stuck in the mode of reacting as I had to my Ex-Wife, and wasn’t then prepared to react to the greatest gift offered us mortals in this Life, True Love.  I didn’t treat her as she should have been when our Lives began again as One, as a “Single Unit”, I treated her as I had learned to treat “the other half”, as I had treated my Ex-Wife, and not as the completely separate person, individual that she is, and had herself become.  {Folks, you want a bit of free therapy/relationship advice?  NEVER treat someone as you have treated someone else!!!  LOL  That may be the surest way to guarantee failure in any relationship.  We, all 7,000,000,000+ of us, are individuals, and should be treated as such, for though our “core” needs -Love, Food, and Shelter- are the same, our views, thoughts, and ideas vary as greatly as the numbers of us!}  The second time, I knew what I had in “having” her in my Life, but I hadn’t figured out what it was I had with “me” in my Life!  I’d given “me” up in the marriage that had completely failed, because I was more concerned with pleasing her (the “X”) than I was with being me, and growing up myself.

By the time I realized I was losing everything I ever wanted, and the Dream/Vision that had begun to become reality, again, it was too late.  I didn’t have time to figure out, or explain, and I had already made too many of the mistakes that I had already made by “not being me” in my marriage.  If we don’t learn from the past, we’re doomed to repeat it…

Life is too short!  We are not Promised tomorrow!  We have but one chance in this Life, to in this moment make the most of the Lives we have been given!  We are given but fractions of “time” in which to Live our lives, and in those blinks of an eye, worlds change, and collide, and we either merely exist in those moments, or we truly Live, and do the best we can to be the best we are capable of being.  And if we are so Blessed to wake once more, who can say what will remain of the World we left behind when we laid our heads to rest?

To make a long story short (er, shorter), The Angel that had twice entered my Life, has twice left my Life.  I don’t know if she saw in my eyes when first we met, what I saw in hers.  I suspect she might have seen even more!  But I don’t know.  I don’t know if, even if she had, what she saw (or may have seen) instead, the second time we shared our Lives together.  We haven’t spoken -seriously- since before we last parted, and all I know of our time together this last time is my own memories, and the things I’ve learned of myself since then.  I know I am unable to even now say to her “Thank you!”, for having made my present Life possible.  Were it not for her, and the role she’s played in my Life, I would not be here now.  But I will do nothing to disrupt the Happiness I’ve been told she now shares with another.  All I’ve ever wanted for her was to be Happy.  That’s what Love is -according to me-.  The time we spent together was, is, the part of my Life that I consider to be the Happiest!  The time when my Dreams, and that Vision I’d had almost became real!

I’ve learned, the hard way, what it is, to have had everything you ever wanted, ever dreamt of having, and lost it all.  I am so Blessed, that I am alive this day, and have begun upon the path that leads to doing, to being, what I’ve always dreamt of, and wanted to be.  But I no longer have her to share that Joy with.  And Joy in this Life, that is unshared with the One you Love, is only half of what it could be.  Life, unshared, is only half of what it should be.  Hopeless, foolish, romantic, Writer/Poet that I am, of course I believe “Happily ever after!” is possible.  But the reality is more often than not, the tragic ending that we in this world have become all too familiar with when it comes to “Love stories” outside of fiction.  Silence is far from golden.  But each day I am so Blessed to rise, I do so in utter Gratitude, for the chance, the opportunity, to once more, make the most of, and attempt to be, the best “me” I can be!  And if given the opportunity, to share a little of the Joy of Living with those who are in, and/or may become, if even for a moment, a part of my Life.

I implore you, the reader, to Live your Life, to the fullest, in every moment you have!  Do not forsake that which you have been given, and do not regret.  Learn from what has been gained, and lost.  Remember all you can of the past, and treasure the memories!  Follow your Dreams, and do whatever it is that makes you Happy, so long as none other is harmed!  Life is too short to be spent miserably!  And those precious moments in which we have all we’ve ever wanted, are too few and far between to be taken for granted!  Live, Love, Share, and Enjoy Life while it lasts, for it IS NOT permanent.  Blessed be my Friends!  Aloha!  Namaste!  As-Alamu ‘Alaykum!


Posted in Deep(er) Thoughts, Life

Sensory Overload! The things we hear…

There have been many discussions, studies -even more, perhaps-, and theories published on the effects of our environment.  Without wanting to add to the tons of material that already exists, here perhaps I might put a different “spin” on the plethora of material that is out there…

Sound is something those of us with the gift (generally speaking, of course), all too often take for granted.  And in a very serious way!

In the industrialized portions of our World, we, the richest 1/3 of Earth’s population, noise pollution is not only a very real problem, but by and large, greatly overlooked!

We all too often are all too busy to notice the constant drone of engines as they speed by, or soar overhead.  We think little of the hum that is ever-present from our computers and florescent lighting.  Not to mention the white noise that is intentionally added in our work space(s) to prevent sound from carrying too much!

In fact, we pay very little attention to the deafening sounds we so willingly tolerate.  Most of the time, until they have caused significant loss, we hardly even notice, unless “their” music is drowning out “our” music, in which case we are more likely to turn the volume up, than ask “them” to turn it down.

With the countless studies that have been done, not only admonishing us for our blatant disregard for the well being of our sensitive noise receptors, but indicating that the “quality” of those same sounds are even capable of effecting our well being, we are still NOT LISTENING!

Noise pollution has become such a constant, that we all too often don’t even acknowledge the fact that it is there.

When was the last time you walked through a city park, and heard the birds singing?  Or the sound of the wind, as it rustles the leaves and branches of the trees?  When is the last time, you sat (or stood, or laid), and enjoyed the silence?

A favorite book of mine by Masaru Emoto, “The Hidden Messages in Water” goes so far as to show the affect(s) noise has on water as it is frozen.  These “noises” are everything from written words, to music, and varying sources of water, from polluted to glacial.  Throughout his 20+ years of research, time and again, he has found that those “vibrations” which equate to the Positive aspects of Life produce the most beautiful and symmetrical crystals, while the Negative produces ugly, misshapen crystals.  If water can be so easily effected by outer influences, what effect(s) are to be found with our own water (which is some 80% or more of our genetic make-up), when our Lives consist of noises that are dominantly intrusive, inharmonious, and at times purely offensive?

It should not surprise us then, that with such an increase in our “negative” input that we find drastically increased numbers of suicides, depression, and people succumbing to violence, be it through “road rage” or “going postal”.

I’m not intending to suggest that we begin a frenzy of lawsuits against those greatest sources of noise pollution, by any means.  I merely wish to point out, that we have allowed so many outer influences to evasively affect our very well being, that it is past time that we begin to acknowledge the many things that have a distinct impact on our Lives.  Be they minute, or major influences, our surroundings are a part of the environment that shapes us!

We are at a time in Human history that gives us a unique opportunity to actually and effectively make changes -even a few drastic ones- for the betterment of ourselves, and our environment!  We have an ever increasing knowledge base of the effects (positive and negative) of those things we allow in our Lives, from the chemicals we consume in our diets, to those we use to clean ourselves and our homes, and there is an active movement towards improving our Lives through cleaner, “greener” Living!

Why not walk the couple of blocks to the corner market, instead of driving?  Why not go for a walk through the park with the Family, and listen to the sound(s) of Birds singing, and Nature, instead of sitting in front of the television and mindlessly spending hours absorbing what the media wants us to see and hear, being thrust upon us with an ever increasing “negative” theme!

Violence in a myriad of forms, anti-social, and anti-familial themes plague all major media outlets, and we absorb it into our conscious and sub-conscious Lives as “commonplace”, laughing all the while at the amusing anecdotal portrayals of Life “as we know it”.  What’s wrong with us??

Have we come so far technologically that we truly have forgotten, and/or lost, sight of our humanity?  What happened to the happy endings, Family values, the good things in Life?  We don’t have to continue to allow the darkness of “reality” overshadow the brighter aspects of it!  They both exist, and we can change our focus from one to the other!  We can demand the media bring to our homes more of the positive, and less of the negative substance that fills, if not overloads our minds!

Pick a day of the week and spend it outdoors with Family and Friends, instead of inside in front of the television.  Visit Art Museums, go to an Opera, or learn a Hobby that takes you away from the hum-drum 9-5 routines, like Dancing, or Sports, or even Theatre, or attending Cultural Events in the community!  Grow a Garden, and take care of it, feed the homeless, do something beneficial for the community you live in, instead of detrimental!

It may seem I’ve strayed way off topic, but consider the audible Sounds that correlate with these various activities?  Consider the noise(s) created by our more “routine” habits, vs. those of a walk through nature.  Or the quality of time spent with the Family, while we listen to uplifting music or play board games, vs. the drone of the blaring television screen filled with images and audio created to “grab” your attention, and influence your next purchase!

We don’t have to return to the Stone Age to better the quality of the Lives we live, we simply need to more closely monitor the amount of “garbage” we let in, and focus on just  a few things we can do to limit the negative, or increase the positive feed back we absorb through our living environments.

In doing so, think of the difference that can be made to the level of noise pollution we create individually!  Consider if we all took such steps, what the effect on the World around us would be!  Every little bit counts, truly!  And if we can change even just a few small things for the better in our personal Lives, we can effectively spread that change to our public Lives, and watch the waves spread outward, to a greater and greater level of effective change for the better, instead of the worse.

Posted in Life

Lost: One Good Sized Chunk Of Who I Am!

Last night -I was to find out this morning- I lost one of the best influences I had in Life.  My Grandfather, Donald R. KUEHN (I called him Grandpa), left his body behind, reuniting in Spirit with my Grandma who went before him, and went to a far better place than the World he left behind.  And to be sure, the World (my World) is a lesser place in his eternal absence.

He was in Life a grand individual, working every day he was able, Loving any who would let him, and rarely (if ever) giving up on those who didn’t (at least as far as Family was concerned).

He is, was, one of a few remaining “Men” in this world, as I define such things, from an era of Human Life/existence where you were not granted such a title, were you incapable of -not only- providing House and Home for your Family, but Building it with your own two hands as well!

Always hard working, sincere, ever active, giving, courageous, firm yet gentle, and always there when Family, or Friends,  or Duty called, doing quite literally all he could to help, in whatever manner he was able!  As my Mother said, “…Selfless!”  With an aura that let all in his presence know that things would work out, would get better, that there was still and would always be a Light to brighten the path, no matter how overwhelming, or daunting, or dark the situation.

In the shadow of the Tree of a Man he was, I am but a seedling, with little more than the hope that I might one day grow to be half as splendid as he was in Life.  He taught me what I know of Woodworking, of being a man of my word, and of “financial” responsibility, and the value of honest, well done hard work!  And through his example, the benefit(s) therein.

The first (and American) born of his German/Italian Parents, he was also among the last of an ever decreasing populous that put Family and Friends first, without question, without rebuke.  To him (and to them), there is, was, nothing more important, no matter the circumstances.  They did not cry or scream for divorce at the first sign of trouble, or discomfort, or hardship, they picked up their heals and strove forward, making the most of what they could, and what they had, even when it was very little.  I don’t ever recall him even once complaining, not about the things he could change, nor the things he could not.  He either changed them, or adapted, or both, and carried on with dignity, and his head held high, smiling!

He was a Gardener, a Woodworker, an Electrician, and all-around do-it-yourselfer!  He served in the U.S. Army as a Radioman during World War II, and was a part of the forces that landed at Normandy.  After returning to the states, he then continued the training received in the military to begin and continue a career in Communication(s), working with AT&T for over 35 years, and once retired, took Grandma in an array of Motor-homes and toured the U.S., Mexico, and Canada, taking a few Cruises around the Globe as well.

He leaves among the Living, 5 siblings, all sisters, his only child, a daughter, her three children (of which I am the oldest), and was able to see only one of four of his Great-Grandchildren, all begot by my sister, the middle (and only girl) of the 3 of us remaining.  He will be missed dearly, Loved always, and, by me, never forgotten.

To be remembered, I believe is the greatest honor we can give any who have Lived.  There is little -if any- other way to carry on their Legacy, for by all other means of Record, through time, unless passed from one generation to the next, orally, all things are eventually lost.

I Pray I am able to Honor his Life, and Memory, in that which I accomplish through the remainder of my own.  As I fear while he was yet Living, I failed to achieve the potential he so often said he saw within me.